Wednesday, December 7

Miss Marjorie's Birth Story

At 12:31 a.m.on November 2, Miss Marjorie was born and I became a Momma.

Birthing her started long before her arrival. We arrived at the hospital at 6 a.m. November 1, eager to meet our little girl; who was already more than a week late. My doctor and I discussed options - the initial plan for induction was Pitocin, but after reading up on the nature of its influence on labor I voiced my preference for alternatives; and decided on a cervical ripener that could be removed if too intense.

It was a good choice, since shortly after it was administered I started having tetanic contractions. These sustained contractions don't have any rest period in between and lasted for hours. When Maggie's heart rate dropped for the third time they administered a bolus of fluid slow things down. After no relief from the saline, they administered a muscle relaxer, which changed everything.

By 2 p.m. my contractions were under control and it was decided I should rest till 6; then we would discuss pitocin. Luckily my body had been initiating contractions since the beginning of induction on its own and during the four hours of rest things progressed to two centimeters. Once examined, my doctor decided to break my water right in hopes my contractions would become regular and we'd get the show on the road more naturally. And boy, did that get things going!

My contractions became regular very quickly and I was breathing my way through. Brian was an amazing coach throughout the entire process. I spent some time on the birthing ball, using Hypnobirthing breathing techniques, and getting back massage from my hubby to work through each surge. When things started to get intense I decided it was time for more relief. Maggie was posterior and the back labor put me over my pain threshold. Ten milligrams of Stadol took the edge off and thirty minutes later had worn off. It was time to climb into the tub for some relief - thirty minutes was all I got before they pulled me out, concerned about Maggie since she had shown signs of distress earlier in the day. Brian helped make the most of it, pouring water over my belly and reminding me to take deep breaths. Once out, I was begging for another dose of Stadol while trying to continue breathing through my contractions, though at this point I was yelling my way through labor. Good thing the hospital was small and there were only two other Mommas on the floor.

My doctor came in to check my progress before allowing additional pain medication, but no luck on the meds as it was time to push! My room had been transformed while I was in the tub, extra furniture was wheeled out and birthing tools moved it. An hour and a half of pushing later and Miss Maggie was born. It took a long time for her to come around and down through my pelvis, but some strong pushing and we welcomed our baby girl.

The umbilical cord was around her neck and she was passed to the pediatrician. Brian stood between my bed and Maggie as they stimulated her - when she belted out her first cry my heart soared. I've been in love ever since. Bringing Marjorie into this world with the strength of my own body, with my husband by my side was the most miraculous experience of my life. She is a gift from God.

Thursday, June 23

Always smiling

Waiting for a taxi last night with Meghan, the sweet girl ahead of us asked me if I love being pregnant. My answer: a resounding I LOVE IT!

The first trimester was trying for both Brian and I while I was constantly exhausted and feeling nauseous. However, we are now well into the second trimester and I feel fantastic! I'm amazed at the miracle of a baby growing inside of me, loving her bumps and kicks, and cherishing my body.

At the doctor's office, we walk in and the other women are rarely smiling. I'm not sure I understand why there isn't an unspoken kinship. I want to share a knowing smile with them - a mutual understanding of the happiness only a woman whom has carried a child could know.

Much to Brian's dismay I've easily forgotten the misery that was a good chunk of my first trimester. I'm passed that and onto the nursery planning, loving the movements of our little girl, and cherishing the miracle we've made together.

So smile at little darn it...enjoy the beauty that is your body and the miracle you've been blessed with. You're belly is big so I hope your over the morning sickness, and if not, keep frowning - that was terrible.

Friday, June 17

Kody's 1st Birthday

Yesterday Kody celebrated his very 1st birthday, spent mostly outside of course.

My cuddly little bear has gotten so big already, though he still has a whole year of growing left to do. As a Berner we are loving bring able to soak in his adorable puppy nature, soft fur and manerisms for a little while longer. He won't be fully mature until two or three and as crazy as he can be as a pup, I love his puppy personality.


For his big day, he enjoyed lots of time in the sun for the afternoon, did a little gardening (or stepping on Nana's rosemary), and enjoyed a multitude of snacks. Once home from the office, I joined the party and we spent the evening in the backyard around a camp fire while Kody happily chomped on a new bone from Nana.

He missed his Daddy greatly and is patiently waiting to jump all over him for cuddling when we head home after my trip for work. For now he is still enjoying his bone, particularly when it involves laying on Nana's lap. He is soaking up all the loving he can get and is napping the days away with his favorite girl doggie Goldie.

I hope you had a great day bud, Happy Birthday big guy.

Thursday, June 16

Letters to Baby Goose

Hi Little one,

I got your very first gift today. It is from Trish, one of the sweetest ladies that I work with. I'm sure you will meet her when Daddy and I bring you to meet Boston. It's a little pink giraffe blanket. I adore the softness and how tiny it is, just the perfect size for you. When I unwrapped the package and smoothed my hand over the fabric I automatically thought of how soft your skin will be when you arrive. I'm secretly hoping you will have your Daddy's cheeks. They are the most kissable cheeks in the world and in baby size and softness I will melt everytime I kiss you. I promise I'll try very hard not to over do the snuggling, but as your Daddy already knows I just can't help myself.

Keep growing big and strong.

Love,
your Momma

Monday, June 13

Nana's cookies

Baby goose and I are spending a few days with Nana and Papa before heading to New York for work. And last night we got to do one of my favorite things...bake.

And at twenty-one weeks, our little girl already loves Nana's chocolate chip cookies.

She can now taste what I eat in the flavor of the ambiotic fluid she drinks. And she has been wiggling with excitement all day as she enjoys the sweetness of the Nana's cookies.



So I think I'll spend the rest of my time here enjoying a few more. As I will happily snack on Nana's cookies to feel the flutters of our little babe.

Thank you Nana, Baby Goose says keep 'em coming.

Wednesday, June 8

Bareing the Babe

I just can't stop bareing my belly.

It gets more round everyday while our little girl grows and it would be hard for me, not to appreciate that. And never before has my stomach protruded from my body showing growth of weight or baby.

My belly, the constant reminder of the miracle of life makes an appearance at least once during the day. And Brian loves it too. At first, I wasn't very round and he would shake his head as he always has when I rub my belly. But now our little girl is getting big and so is Momma. Brian now looks at me with a knowing smile and rubs my belly too. Today he got to feel her for the first time kicking away. And she also received some Kody kisses as Daddy taught him to lick my tummy.

Kody and I enjoying the sunshine, visiting Grandma's chickens


In the evening, when a long day is done, our little baby goose likes to make her presence known. She sits heavy in my lower abdomen and I rub my belly as she meets my hand. It's one of my favorite parts of the day, as if she is letting me know it's time to sleep. Shortly after, while getting ready for bed I can't help but revel in the growth my body has made while we patiently wait for our baby girl.


A glorious day at the farm

Thursday, June 2

Letters to Baby Goose

Yesterday we found out you're our baby girl and now all of my expectations are changing. Your Daddy convinced me you were a boy. For weeks, I have been preparing for broken bones and mud pies. But now all of that has changed as I dream of how soft and delicate you will be. Your flips and flutters in my belly seem so much more graceful now, less like karate and more like ballet.

Grow strong little one, Daddy and I are so excited to meet you. We've got a lot of preparing to do so take your time.

Love,
your Momma

Monday, January 10

Back to the Beginning.

It's been a year. I started this blog a year ago to share with family and friends our lives now that we were living hours away. I've shared advice, attempted to hold fast to goals by telling everyone, ventured into life's changes, and somewhat cataloged our year. This may have been the biggest, craziest year we'll ever have - but I doubt that. If you know us - you doubt that too.

Twenty-ten was good to us.

We've moved three times (ok, two since we moved to Maine in December 2009). We got married, changed my name, brought Kody into our home and hearts, made new friends, become whitewater guides, and more. It's not just us though, my sister married Michael and moved to Texas, Brian's Mom and Ted purchased a business in Maine (and in 2011, a home), my little sister got her permit, my parents ventured to new places including Maine and are sillier than ever. My best friends have new jobs, some have new apartments, and we're all starting appear like real adults.

Best change of 2010 - I'm a wife. Not just anyone's wife - Brian's wife. I love him, our little family, and our future.